my material world.

I like things. And it's a major problem.

By "things" I mean material goods. Clothes, jewelry, home decor, music. Over the past year, since breaking up with my ex, I've seen my bank account dwindle significantly. Could it be the cause? Maybe I'm trying to fill some void.

I find that when I'm bored (which can be often), I like to go out and do things. I'm usually by myself, and there's not a lot that you can do on your own without spending money. So shop is what I do. And it's turned into a bad habit. I'm the type that likes to be out and about. So how do I do that on my own?

I like to give myself goals, challenges and aspirations. This past month (May 10-June 10), I went off of Facebook (tomorrow, tomorrow!). I found that I was spending way too much unnecessary time on it. So I gave myself a month to stay off, to go out and do things instead of sitting in front of my computer. It helped a bit, but I realized that I like that connection with others, no matter what form it's in.

I think that I need to give myself a new goal. Starting tomorrow, I am going to give myself a budget each week for how much I can spend on material goods. This does not include going out to eat with friends, etc., or seeing a movie or some other form of entertainment.

For me, goals and to-do lists are necessary. Without them, I would accomplish very little. The past couple of years I've given myself a list of things to do for the year, starting in January. Last year I was very successful. This year I have less things on my list, but maybe that needs to change.

Something is missing in my life, and maybe a drastic change is in order. I'll start small; goals and aspirations that are attainable now. But maybe they'll lead to more. Who knows.