bandwagon.

I've been toying with the notion of normalcy lately. What does it mean to be "normal"? The dictionary defines normal as "conforming to a standard; usual, typical, or expected". I would like to dwell on the word conform. To me, this is what normal is in our society; conforming to everyone else. Be it clothing, speech, hair, thoughts, careers, etc. Lately whenever I go to the mall, I find myself scowling at the stores and the clothing that inhabits them. EVERYTHING IS THE SAME. And everyone buys in to what is popular at the time, myself included. I've been struggling with myself and how I want to portray who I am. And yes this goes beyond my outward appearance. I don't like being and looking just like everyone else. I want to be unique, my own person. But at the same time I don't want to be totally looked down on and judged, as much as I say I don't care what others think. So at what price do I forgo "normal" and just be me?

It's so ridiculous to me that an individual can't merely dress in a different fashion than others. Today I was at Goodwill, and there were a small group of people there dressed in the goth/punk fashion. All the power to them! They don't give a shit (for lack of a better term) what others think, or at least it looks that way. I wish that I had the confidence to stand out like that. This blog is about pursuing who I am and what I want to do in this life. One of those things is to stand out, to show the world that I am here, that I am important and that I can do great things! First things first; I need to believe it for myself.







My lovely Zara jacket; the picture doesn't do it justice!